Everybody changes. To say you haven’t would be a lie. Like, you change two ways: for better or for worse. You can change because someone hurt you, influenced you, or because you need to. People physically change, through growth, mentality, or appearance. Some change their outlook on life, love, etc. EVERYONE changes in some shape or form. I’ve changed alot growing up. I’ve had my phases of wanting and yearning to be liked by the people surrounding me. I thought I needed people to accept me, needed people to want to be my friends. I dressed like everyone else, did my hair like everyone else, and did stupid shit that everyone thought was “cool”. I dissed the things I liked when my friends didn’t like them. I was lead into peer pressure and started smoking and disobeying my elders. I committed crimes and didn’t give a fuck about my education. But then something hit me, it was like God suddenly woke me up, slapped me in the face, and said “straighten up.” I realized that I didn’t need society’s approval and that half the shit I was doing wasn’t even “cool”. It was stupid and I was stupid for falling into the trap. I stopped hanging out with the people who were bringing me down and found myself a small circle that was there to help me get on the right path. I dressed how I wanted, and stated what I knew was right. I said “no” to stupid things like marijuana, hallucinates, wild parties, sex, and other obnoxious things and focused on becoming a better person. Not just for me, but for my true friends who loved me and my family who was there for me since day 1. People called me lame, wack, corny, a goody-goody, a geek, nerd. But I was living a better life through God, and I was proud of myself. So fuck what anybody says about you. Change for the better, because sometimes change is good. Like I’ve said… everybody changes. It’s your choice on how you do it. 

Posted: Mon June 18th, 2012 at 8:40pm
Tagged: rants